[Mary] Jane has been sick all day had the ague, Spent the eavning a[t] Mr. Welky[’s] Had a very pleasant time he got a good long letter from home, and several others
12 [December 1858] Was at church this morning Mr Morse preached a tolerably good sermon Jane is some better, but had a chill was at singing school, I feel real bad this eavning I am not near as good as I used to be, I am so selfish. Contrary they say I am and I supose I am. I used to feel as if I could make any sacrifice now matter how great for the loved ones at home but I dont feel at all now my feeling seem to stand still Oh! I must not feel so, I will be better

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13th Painter is here, he is clerking for Proctor there is quite an excitement about getting Pharon[?] out of the store they are petitioning [XXX] to have him removed I think that they had better let Proctor tend to his own business.
14th Was at lodge this eavning I felt like I used to when I was at home among the girls and Boys, so full of life and fun perhaps I acted very silly and foolish. I expect I did, but I couldent help it how I wish that I had one just one friend that apriciated me one that knew that I was always what I appeared to be when I laughed I felt hope when I touched [XXX] and [XXX] I felt so but I dont believe there is any one thinks right of me

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they think I am acting up half the time dont mean what I say
15th Mary Jane sick had to teach for her, Plumb has been on a high all the wek indeed I do not know that he has not been about half drunk for several weks, tis such a shame why will any one so debased themselves, Oh, how I dread the holidays I so fear for some of our Good Templars. I fear more for them than I ever did before because I have less faith in them, I wish I could have more I shall do all in my power to hold them up, I never wished for power, influence as I do now perhaps my fears are groundless, I hope they are. While we were at singing school this eavning

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some one cride Fire fire we all jumped and run as we did before but I dont think we were frightened as bad, at least I was not, twas the Printing office caught from the pipe again and it was soon put out, come back to school, Mr Morse gave us a little cookie twas good
15th Mary Jane still not abel to go to school. Mr and Mrs Haddley spent the eavning with us. The Masonic Hall is going up fast, the outside of the upper[?] story is finished windows in and all
This has been a beautiful day the sun set so grandly to night, and the moon and stars are shining so bright not a cloud to be seen

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18th Mary Jane still sick, a Bright beautiful day The folks are all talking about going to Americus Christmas eave. I hope they may have a good time, I feel more like myself today then I have for a long time [crossed out section] I am very much ashamed of such feelings and dont know why I should feel so, but Anna is her self tonight and I hope she will continue to be so
18th Been working all day, there has been so many people in town today what an iminse amount of business is done here

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Spent the eavning at Mrs Ps there was quite a compny there sung some talked some and acted very foolish as is generally the case, had [crossed out section] Mr Rankin is here, Papa is helping him with some of his law business, I wish he would go home for I want to go to bed tis provocking we have no other room here I have to set so sleepy I hardly hold my or undress and go to bed befor him I will try and he as patient as bashful
19th We were at Methodist church this morning Margret Jane went home this afternoon Mr Holmes came up this eavning and we had a little singing school Mr Pharon was had for Breakfast had venison